Planting is Done!!

FINISHED!!!

So my first try at a flower garden is complete!  Here are a few pics:



African Daisy

Snapdragons

Geranium and Daylily in a pot at the front door


Can't wait to add more pics!!!

It's Not About My Sadness...But the Promise Ahead

Hello!

Finally seeing the signs of Spring!!  I've been feeling really sad these past couple of days.  Adjusting to my new status in life isn't easy but I take each day one at a time.  But I think that my talks with the Man Upstairs are starting to bear fruit.  I'm learning that He has a plan for me and even though I may feel like I want to crawl under a rock, I must try not to focus on my sadness, but the Promise that He has and is working out for me.   Woke up this morning to this little Easter gift...




Slowly but surely, things are starting to calm down and I just submitted papers to do business here in NC.  Actually working to get my shop open again and all the work involved should keep me busy, much less time with my thoughts, and that's a good thing.  In the meantime, I'm off to tackle my backyard (yes, I have a backyard!!!) maybe try my hand at growing some flowers!!! 

Time for Planting!

 

Hi everyone!

Going to try my hand at planting some flowers!

The ground here is...well...clay.  Thick, heavy clay and sand.  If I decided to go into pottery making all I have to do is go outside and dig up my backyard!  So in order to have any flowers, I have to make my own flowerbed.  Went and purchased some compost, soil and mulch, some edging, along with some lovely flowers. 

I bought a whole flat of colorful snapdragons, as well as some geraniums, petunias, marigolds and a few daylilies.  Can't wait to get stuck into all that dirt!!!

Grr...Arrgh...Brutal Winter!!!

So...Here I am in beautiful North Carolina. 

Umm...beautiful North Carolina...COVERED IN ICE!   REALLY? 
Unrelenting sheets of ice and blankets of snow!!  I have been told that this year has been one of the worst here to date! 

On a humorous note, this is what I awakened to in my backyard:




A snowmonster!!!  The snow is so wet and heavy the poor leyland cypress in my backyard looks like the abominable snowmonster!



This poor tree just couldn't make it. 

While this snow is just so beautiful, I can't wait until Spring. 

New Move...New Life

It's been a good few months since I last added anything to Beadweaver Dreams.  As I said in my last entry, my world was turned upside down, my heart trampled on and discarded like garbage.  I'm sure there are a few of my readers that have had the unfortunate experience of the devastating emotions of despair, depression among others.  Believe me, I wouldn't wish these feelings on my worst enemy.  It puts every emotion, every thought, every feeling you have about everything and everyone into question.  It destroys your energy, devastates your spirit. You spend nights curled in a ball with every inch of you screaming in pain and despair while questions as to why it's happening remain unanswered and you feel exposed and alone wanting to die in the dark.  You curse the sunrise.  You curse happy people.  What seemed like a life that, while there were struggles, you had no doubt that they would be triumphantly overcome because you had that one person beside you that would never abandon you, that you thought and had no doubt at all that they were your unmoveable, faithful rock.   That one person who you thought was your entire being that would never ever think of inflicting the emotional assassination that destroyed your life, your dream and turned it into a nightmare. 

  

It has taken me months and a renewed relationship with my God to get to the point where I can be somewhat functional and what little energy I have must be spent packing my things and moving from my sweet little apartment with the big window and the glorious phenomenal weather theatre that is my sky.  So with a heavy, broken heart I say goodbye to NYC and hello to NC and my new life. 

Feeling my life fall into a great big dark hole...

I am sorry to say that I have to abandon my blog and my shops for a little while.  My life has taken a huge hit and without going into much detail, I must leave you guys for a bit.  Everything in my life has fallen apart.  My heart has been ripped out and trampled on by the person I trusted the most to be here for me and to be my best friend forever and right now I can't even cope with life much less a store.  I hope to return soon.  God bless you all.

Winter!!! A View from Above

Hiya folks! It's a beastly winter day!!   I live on the 8th floor of an apartment building.  The window looks out onto a neighborhood park and you can see the Worlds Fair Globe in Flushing Meadow Park in the distance.  I delight in looking up into the unencumbered sky and gazing at approaching thunderstorms, the streaks of lightning cuting through the day and night sky and watching the sun rise and set.   I woke up this morning to a very wet and icy day.  Thought I would share it with you. 

 Here's a short video taken out of my living room window:

Stay warm and cozy!!!